I had plans made up for today, but do you wanna know what?

Im gonna cancel everyone and just sit in my soft big chair and study turkish.

Nice and quiet...

...it will not be, becouse I will get frustrated on the grammar. But thats another story!

Görüşürüz  

Oh My...Im so tired!!

After all baking and all other ton of things I did it was like you turned off my body and brain in a second!!  

It dident even help that I spook to Gökhan. He is well, his first duty was last night between 1 am to 3 am. A horrible time! He said it was frezzing cold...but in Agri it can be down to -30 C. So this is nothing what it will be, but he dosent have his winterclotes in army yet. Hopefully he will get them soon so he will not be sick.

Like I will probably soon!

I even dosent feel like watching a movie or read other turkish wifes blogs...

Ohaa!! I have had perfect timing today.

- Waking up, got to store shoping food for saturdays party.

- Home starting a laundry.

- Under the time I entertain my self by baking.

When I cleaned the feezer some days ago I found a chokolate cream that I cant remember what I had it to. But it still tasted great so I just added some orangepeel and melted the cream alittle in microwave.

Had it inside a swiss roll (rulltårta), but it was alot of cream so it was just to clean all the stuff and start over agian and make one more dough to a swiss roll.

Its second time Im doing swiss roll and I hate to moment ''turn the cake up-side-down on a sugary paper and pull fast of the bakingpaper and then quickly on with the jam or cream''.

First of all if I should pull the paper off to fast the whole cake will break.  

Second its absolutly not easy to make a roll out of it when its cream on!

- When those was done I was gonna start with blackberrymuffin. But NO egg! Okay it was the only miss I had. But Im running in to grandmum and guess what she has exactly left 5 eggs that I needed! So I was lucky again.

- Home making muffins and they turning out good. I got 21 but recipe say 10-12, well I had smaller baking tins...I dont need them that big. If I have I'll get sisko (fatty)!

- Laundry was now done and when I look out the window its sunny, its had been raining all morning. So out with that and in again and started a new laundry.

- After I Was gonna start doing small cheespies, but my jufka was to old...

So now Im laying in my bed doing nothing. I should clean all house...BUT I have no motivation for it!

I felt less depresed this morning then last night when I went to bed.

Why a phonecall can make you so deprest...

Now its just the part where am I gonna stay?

Thanks to some family they are helping me to look around for room/apartments!

My friends in Örebro are amasing, writing, telling and can fix me in on some extra work here and there! I really appreciate all the help you guys are doing for me!

I can do whatever, go out walk with dogs, do dishes on restaurants, I can do all the trash job as long as I get money for it!!

This day started with I helped grandmum to take down the sun umbrella, not easy when the rope is wrong. But in the end we got it inside. Then I had planed to help her with all wood she got, but all was gone! In 3 days she have been sawing everything!! Super grandmum!! 

So it was just to go home again and make up new plans for today...

I started to pick up apples, got the barrow overfull when we were done...

Then it was time to pick blackberries, got around one liter.

Our dog and I said Hi to the lambs...

And last we cut all the lawn and we were done before the rain! Mum accerly saw that I had!   

Sound like Im the big homewife but one part of me likes it. Go at home and do what ever you feels like. And many times it can be hard! Like today...

I got also a phonecall when I drank coffe with my dad.

It was from my job in Örebro, they would like me to work there this season too.

But I got so deprest after that call! I just wanted to turn my sorrows in a candybag...

Sure I could work there no problem, but where am I gonna live? Thats the biggest problem...

But my angel cousin maybe will fix it! She knew a family close to Marieberg that normally rent out to students. Should be wonderful. Instead of staying at my creep old renter...

InsAllah the best will happen..

Ahhhh...let me to swear..?! Damnnnn it!!

Always when I start to plan my future and have my weeks busy. Then companys are calling me and want me to work, always like this! Why cant they have better planning...

I have absolutly no idea how Im supuse to do now...

I know I should work, earn some money, I get better pension, get experiance and so Im not gonna be borred at home...

But...

Its on main contry in Örebro, It cost money to go there, I have no place to live becouse my last renter is a creep, its just 3-4 days a week, around 120 skr/hour which makes around 13 000 a mounth, rent for apartment at least 2 000-3 000, food cost 2 000 a month, gas around 1 000 or depending on where I can find a apartment.

Ahhh, help me!! What should I do??

Yesterday we went into the 10'th months of the islamic calender, Shawwāl. Literally it means ''lift or carry'', named of a female camel that normally about this time was carring a fetus.

In the first three days the Eid Al-Fitr is celebrated.

The six following day is recommended for fasting. If you did fasting under all ramazan and do this six extra days it says it will be rewarded as if you had been fasting a whole year.

If completed whole ramazan you will be rewarded at least ten times of oruc equivalent days. Lets do some maths, Ramazan is 30x10=300 plus six days of Shawwāl 6x10=60, which makes 300+60= 360 days. And the Islamic calender is 10 days shorter the Gregorian calender.

Its no priority like under ramazan that you have to do it exactly this days, you can do one and later follow up another day in the month of Shawwāl.

I choose to do my Shawwāl later under the month. Insallah...

Congratultion the blue team! You are waiting your baby as you so much want.

But you are stupid! You are in 7'th week of the pregnancy, which is nothing. Its an important time for the little thing to make the main parts of a body. As more you lose in weight as healtyer the baby will be.

Normaly the most dangerous time for miscarriage is from 7'th up to 12'th week. You are over 40 yours old which make that unsafe period longer. Also you have a special sickness that can make the period even more longer to get miscarriage.

I can just wish all the best for you, your husband and your new life.

But when the result was on board who was gonna go home I wished that the pink team was gonna stay. They are making such a big effort to lose weight. They even help other when they feel down and having no motivation.  

Last thing I have to say. Absolutly great that the guy that was 206,6 is now under the 200 line!! You shoud have seen his smile!