We got mail today, one letter.

Who can it be from..?

Yes, one of the parlaments that wants my vote in election in 12 days.

I have one question to them all;

How are they thinking when they want to save the environment, BUT still sending out milions of letters to the swedish people?? Is that saving the nature??

If it is, well I dont think I need to care that much as I do about the trash separation...?

And instead of just puting pee, shit and paper in the toilet, I can also leave tampongs...?

Just think about how many trees that was needed, all that gas, oli that was spent.

Maybe the only good think is they are giving people job opportunity to deliver those letters.

(We got letters from every parlament, even environment-parlament...)  

Im geting so tired on those people that thinks they know exactly what I should do!

So what that I dont have a job. I like to be at home to do what I want. Specially now when I have been oruc, I can rest when I feel I need to, I can do housework outside or inside, I can help my family with what they need and I can eat when iftar comes.

Like my garndmum, she say every day that I should find a job. A full time job, move out from mums house, find my own apartment, stop fool around with islam and get a boyfriend in Sweden.

Well grandmum, whats the point to get a job when I can just work till begining of january, becouse Gökhan is out from army then. Plus I live on Gotland which mean its no job wintertime! Sure I could go around and ask if someone need help, that should probably be the most effectiv way to get a job. But who want to hire a woman for full time and that can just work till january? Maybe they want me to work in Örebro this winter too, sure I should be able to do. If I found a new place to stay. My other room I rented there the owner started to be personaly close or what I should say... to stand in middle of the night in just underwear and t-shirt infront of a muslim woman when she just came home from work, is not OKAY!! Absolutly not acceptable!

Yes, Im also losing retirement pension on beeing at home and going to Turkey half the year. But sorry Im planing to move down there on full time. Maybe in future we will move back to Sweden, when our future kids InsAllah will start school.

Becouse I love my man! He is the one and only for me!

I converted to Islam soon a year ago and it was the best thing I have done for a long time. Im not the best one, I have still much to learn and Im learning every day! So when Im standing there and the judgementday I hope I am a good and faithful muslim. Allahu Akbar.

Grandmum, please. Im here at home, here to help you. When I have been working you complained that no one care about you. No one was thinking about that you needed to shop, that you needed to go to the doctor, go to meet friends and that you need help in garden. GRANDMUM, IM HERE TO HELP YOU AND EVERYONE EALS!

Im not just saying that my grandmum complaining. Its Everyone!

I am me and I cant be like you even if I try the most. I need to find my own way to paradise, maybe it will not be straight and it should not be eather.

Im sorry if I hurted someone, dident mean to

I just needed to say what I feel about my position right now. Thank you!

I got one of the best wake ups;

my dear friend Philip just took his driving licens!

I'm so proud over him. He finally got it!

MasAllah!!