One more day of oruc is done and I have now just 10 days left to complet. Yesterdays oruc was so hard, I had heavy migraine! To work was a pain, to sit there infront of the computer and boss yelling. It was hard!

Today it have been much better. Little hard when I was at town to shop the last things for the wedding. When I stod there in a fitting room I feelt small bloodsuger dip but the clock was around 1 pm so its normal. After I came home from town I jumped strait into my sofa and I sleept there 2 hours until I woke up because I was so cold. I had the door open to get some freash air in the apartment. So I went to my bed instead and sleept there 2 more hours. So all afternoon I have been sleeping. I hope I can fall to sleep tonight!

Rest of the evening I have been doing some work, we resived all students bus cards last friday. Because I am going to Mersin for 5 weeks I feelt that I wanted to finish this so my substitute dont have to do anything with it, just give the cards to kids. And now its done!

Now I will sit back and watch a movie!

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أُوْلَـٰٓٮِٕكَ هُمُ ٱلۡكَـٰفِرُونَ حَقًّ۬ا‌ۚ وَأَعۡتَدۡنَا لِلۡكَـٰفِرِينَ عَذَابً۬ا مُّهِينً۬ا

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Such are disbelievers in truth; and for disbelievers We prepare a shameful doom.

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Sådana tror inte på sanning, och för icke troende Vi förbereder en skamligundergång.

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وَٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ بِٱللَّهِ وَرُسُلِهِۦ وَلَمۡ يُفَرِّقُواْ بَيۡنَ أَحَدٍ۬ مِّنۡہُمۡ أُوْلَـٰٓٮِٕكَ سَوۡفَ يُؤۡتِيهِمۡ أُجُورَهُمۡ‌ۗ وَكَانَ ٱللَّهُ غَفُورً۬ا رَّحِيمً۬ا

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But those who believe in Allah and His messengers and make no distinction between any of them, unto them Allah will give their wages; and Allah was ever Forgiving, Merciful.

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Men de som tror på Allah och Hans budbärare och gör ingen skillnad mellan någonav dem, till dem kommer Allah att ge sina löner, och Allah var ständigt förlåtande,barmhärtig.

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يَسۡـَٔلُكَ أَهۡلُ ٱلۡكِتَـٰبِ أَن تُنَزِّلَ عَلَيۡہِمۡ كِتَـٰبً۬ا مِّنَ ٱلسَّمَآءِ‌ۚ فَقَدۡ سَأَلُواْ مُوسَىٰٓ أَكۡبَرَ مِن ذَٲلِكَ فَقَالُوٓاْ أَرِنَا ٱللَّهَ جَهۡرَةً۬ فَأَخَذَتۡهُمُ ٱلصَّـٰعِقَةُ بِظُلۡمِهِمۡ‌ۚ ثُمَّ ٱتَّخَذُواْ ٱلۡعِجۡلَ مِنۢ بَعۡدِ مَا جَآءَتۡهُمُ ٱلۡبَيِّنَـٰتُ فَعَفَوۡنَا عَن ذَٲلِكَ‌ۚ وَءَاتَيۡنَا مُوسَىٰ سُلۡطَـٰنً۬ا مُّبِينً۬ا

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The people of the Scripture ask of thee that thou shouldst cause an (actual) Book to descend upon them from heaven. They asked a greater thing of Moses aforetime, for they said: Show us Allah plainly. The storm of lightning seized them for their wickedness. Then (even) after that) they chose the calf (for worship) after clear proofs (of Allah's Sovereignty) had come unto them. And We forgave them that! And We bestowed on Moses evident authority.

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Folket i Skriften kräver av dig att du skulle orsaka en (faktiskt) Boka komma ner på dem från himlen. De frågade en större sak av Moses fordom, ty de sade: Visa ossAllah tydligt. Den storm av blixtar grep dem för deras ondska. Sedan (även) efter att)de valde kalven (för dyrkan) efter tydliga bevis (av Allahs suveränitet) hade kommit till dem. Och Vi förlät dem det! Och Vi skänkte på Moses uppenbar auktoritet.

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۞ لَّا يُحِبُّ ٱللَّهُ ٱلۡجَهۡرَ بِٱلسُّوٓءِ مِنَ ٱلۡقَوۡلِ إِلَّا مَن ظُلِمَ‌ۚ وَكَانَ ٱللَّهُ سَمِيعًا عَلِيمًا

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Allah loveth not the utterance of harsh speech save by one who hath been wronged. Allah is ever Hearer, Knower.

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Allah älskar inte yttrandet av hårda tal spara av en som har blivit kränkta. Allah ärständigt Hör, Vet.

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إِن تُبۡدُواْ خَيۡرًا أَوۡ تُخۡفُوهُ أَوۡ تَعۡفُواْ عَن سُوٓءٍ۬ فَإِنَّ ٱللَّهَ كَانَ عَفُوًّ۬ا قَدِيرًا 

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If ye do good openly or keep it secret, or forgive evil, lo! Allah is ever Forgiving, Powerful.

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Om ni gör bra öppet eller hålla det hemligt, eller förlåta onda, lo! Allah är ständigt förlåtande, kraftfull.

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إِنَّ ٱلَّذِينَ يَكۡفُرُونَ بِٱللَّهِ وَرُسُلِهِۦ وَيُرِيدُونَ أَن يُفَرِّقُواْ بَيۡنَ ٱللَّهِ وَرُسُلِهِۦ وَيَقُولُونَ نُؤۡمِنُ بِبَعۡضٍ۬ وَنَڪۡفُرُ بِبَعۡضٍ۬ وَيُرِيدُونَ أَن يَتَّخِذُواْ بَيۡنَ ذَٲلِكَ سَبِيلاً

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Lo! those who disbelieve in Allah and His messengers, and seek to make distinction between Allah and His messengers, and say: We believe in some and disbelieve in others, and seek to choose a way in between;

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Lo! de som inte tror på Allah och Hans budbärare, och försöker göra skillnad mellanAllah och Hans budbärare, och säger: Vi tror på vissa och inte tror på andra, ochförsöker välja en väg mitt emellan;

When you feel little down and sluggish the best medicin is Tylolhot!

Its perfect just before a cold bubbles up , you drink this morning and evening and the cold never came!

I have for a long time been sneezing and today I feelt something in my throat that was irritating. So chopchop I fixed a glas of hot water and mixed in tylolhot!

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إِنَّ ٱلۡمُنَـٰفِقِينَ فِى ٱلدَّرۡكِ ٱلۡأَسۡفَلِ مِنَ ٱلنَّارِ وَلَن تَجِدَ لَهُمۡ نَصِيرًا

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Lo! the hypocrites (will be) in the lowest deep of the Fire, and thou wilt find no helper for them;

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Lo! hycklarna (kommer att) i lägsta djup i elden, och du skall finna någon hjälpareför dem;

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إِلَّا ٱلَّذِينَ تَابُواْ وَأَصۡلَحُواْ وَٱعۡتَصَمُواْ بِٱللَّهِ وَأَخۡلَصُواْ دِينَهُمۡ لِلَّهِ فَأُوْلَـٰٓٮِٕكَ مَعَ ٱلۡمُؤۡمِنِينَ‌ۖ وَسَوۡفَ يُؤۡتِ ٱللَّهُ ٱلۡمُؤۡمِنِينَ أَجۡرًا عَظِيمً۬ا

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Save those who repent and amend and hold fast to Allah and make their religion pure for Allah (only). Those are with the believers. And Allah will bestow on the believers an immense reward.

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Spara de som ångrar sig och ändra och hålla fast vid Gud och göra deras religionrena för Allah (endast). De som är med de troende. Och Allah kommer att skänkade troende en enorm belöning.

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مَّا يَفۡعَلُ ٱللَّهُ بِعَذَابِڪُمۡ إِن شَكَرۡتُمۡ وَءَامَنتُمۡ‌ۚ وَكَانَ ٱللَّهُ شَاڪِرًا عَلِيمً۬ا 

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What concern hath Allah for your punishment if ye are thankful (for His mercies) and believe (in Him)? Allah was ever Responsive, Aware. 

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Vilken oro har Allah för ditt straff om ni är tacksamma (för hans barmhärtighet) ochtro (på honom)? Allah var alltid lyhörd, Vakande.

God, I am so tired! This latest night I havent sleeped any good, its so many thoughts that runs thru my mind. I am exited to be face to face with Gökhan again, Im nervous about the wedding and I miss work.

I have now been off work for 5 days and it starts killing me, I have just been going around in stores and found little that and little this. Yeah some money have been spent. But the goal was to buy some things for the wedding and its almost compleated.

Its actually first today that I have been doing something good. I have cleaned the house, did dishes, walking in my wedding shoes, sat down and looked over my economi, I did some sneak working and I was at IKEA to buy some thing for my husband.

Can you belive that I am gonna go to Mersin 8 days later?! I am starting to realise it and all I want to do is to start packing my things. But I know if I do I will stand there with to much things and forget something importent.

I am missing my husband so much that I only can fall to sleep when I huge a pillow and kissed his lips (my hand) good night.

In this longing suddenly here and there some wedding thoughts jumps up and says - Hey! Remember this and ohh that hair should be good, but you know the hairdresser will not be able to fix it nicely.   ...and then the game began, no sleep for atleast 1 hour.

Its 1 months left and I have already panic and I still cant do anything about it because I am not in Mersin, so I dont have to care yet.

I am so happy that tomorrow is a workday, so life will go back to normal!

Two days work then weekend and when the weekend comes I am alowed to start packing, to shop the last things that is needed for wedding.

Then the week comes and I have just 3 days work, those days will be full of stress to fix everything important so bosses will not need to contact me under my holiday. I should die if they called on our weddingday and asked something!

All this maybe sounds like I belive everything is hard work and super stress, but actually I have the biggest smile on my face and enjoying this! I am so exited!! I am soon gonna be the princes in white dress standing next to my knight in black armor.

You and me man!