Mum and I are rushing of to Visby to buy more pain for the kitchen roof. She is done with the first round and discoverd that its soon finished.

I will go and see if I can find a cheese slicer. I am tired on always eat cream cheese in Mersin...when it exist normal ''hard'' cheese. But they dont have the slicer in any store and to stand and try to cut by hand thin slices is not easy. And to eat a slice of cheese that is like 1 cm thick for breakfast is not my thing!

I am looking around on the blogs Im fallowing, most of them has a connection from Turkey or Islam. And they have been a big suport under the time I have been away from my husband. Some of them had the same situation as me but some years ago and now they are married and lives a happy life.

Tonight one girl had posted photos on Alanyas the marina. I miss those days Gökhan and I walked on seaside. We could just take some cookies, nuts and cay with us and then have a picknick on a bench. Mostly we took his youngest cousin with us. Gökhan and I are almost like her stepparents.

Now when its not long time left until I am traveling down there again all my memories is coming back and I have a longing to do all does things again.

To go out walking and never know what will happen. Mersin is a huge city and can never stop to be explored!

My goal on this army trip has always been to make it to the 1 january and then I have been beliving time should run away fast and I should be so lyric to pack. But thats not how it have been...Its 10 days left and I am siting at home like a dead person pale as a snowflake. I have the last days manage to go out walking which have made me little more awak. Today I was fantastic weather and our neighbor can to my rescue and shoveled the way up for me.

And now I sit here and misses Mersin and it have started to itch in my packing fingers!!

This photo is taken one year ago, when I first time visit Mersin.

This years problem have already begun!

I just recived news from my husband that his army is not 155 days long...its 158 days! That means I will be in Mersin with his family for 4-5 days before he comes home. First I got so disappointed and sad! But I cant do nothing about it, its just to realize and make it work!

I asked Gökhan how come they changed the date. But they have 6 months army duty and the autumn season goes like this -

august   31 days

september   30 days

october   31 days

november   30 days

december   31 days

january   31 days

Makes: 184 days

- 12 days off before army

- 12 days off after army

- 2 days for travel

Total: 158 days

For them that that goes in army in spring season have 3 days shorter becouse of february that just have 28 days. So if he should start his duty now in january he should have had 155 days as we had been planing for.

But this is our luck! We always get a turn on the end on everything but thats our life and gots it charm too.

This photo is taken under Ramazan Bayrami infront of their main entrance.

The photo has very bad quaity but Gökhan stands in the left upper corner number four.

I am sitting here drinking glögg and harmony is on the peak! Or it should have been if I had my husband here...

After days full of happy moments with family and friends, my longing after my husband have been going bigger for every minute! Now when the time soon is in and I will stand there once more at the airport waiting for the time to go faster.

Today when Gökhan was online he asked me if I was nervous to meet him again after these 6 months (exact on the day), my answer was no, probably you are more then me...

What is that for an answer..?? I got mad on my self and I started to think, why am I not nervous like I othervise always is?

But I think the last months I have been pushing away my feeling so I should stand out from all missing. The first months I was crying everyday and was so worried all the time for things that could happen. It dident get better after I got to know about his sickness. He had got knee problem from walking so strange, also his kedney had some problem. For a while he went to the doctor every few days, even took ultra sound but it showed nothing. Alhamdulillah!

When I think back on the time that have passed I am happy that it passed fast and well! Now we are soon there in the future and it feels like nothing can be harder then this.

Imagine that we have passed 184 days and just have 19 left! Imagine, its all crazy!!

Its soon time to start pack my bag! I love to pack my bag becouse it means time is coming but one problem is that I always pack to much...And it will be extra hard this time when I move down for a much longer time and I will need more stuff.

This man I miss and love most of everything these days.

My arm hurts!!!

I have been a good girl and took 2 injections, Hepatit A full protect and Hepatit B first vaccination. I am chocked over my self that I was not nervous until 5 min before I should get the injection in my arm. I absolutely hate them!

The first one went good, I thought it was not bad and started to overcome my fare but then it was time for second and she hits a nerv and it was almost so I screamed of pain! OMG, what it hurted! I could not lift my arm after that so the nurse had to help me on with my t-shirt and to drive was a really big problem.

Now its just 3 weeks left for my second injection of Hepatit B...

Do I look forward to it? Not really... or yeah I do if she not find a nerv again. I really need these before we get married becouse the Turkish goverment will ask for it. So better to do it now then later!

Today is the Day of Ashure.

A day that is celebrated of all muslims but depending on if you are Sunna or Shia.

In Sunna they celebrate it in momories of Noah. It says that when Noah and his ask rested on the Mount Ararat they had not so much food left so for dinner they cooked together what they had and it bacame a pudding. Noah's pudding also called Ashure now days. This pudding contains on wheat, rice, beans, chick peas, sugar, dried fruits, and nuts. On the top before serving you can put sesame seeds, pomegranate kernels, and rose water, as well as cinnamon.

Shia muslims celebrate this day as a memorie of the Battle of Karbala. There they are mourning for the martyrdom of Husayn ibn Ali, which was the grandson of Muhammed (saw).

In a very small part of the shiiter, they show this mourning by giving them self the same pain they had in the battle. Men, woman and kids cut them self to show sympathy. But as I said its a very small part of the shiiter that does that.

One thing that is common in this to parts of muslims is that its good points to fast under this days. Sunna, becouse Noah had not much food on that day. Shia, the people in battle had no food at all.

Happy Ashure!

Exactly 1 month later I will be in Mersin huging my turkish family and jump into bed and sleep a long good nights sleep after all traveling. Probably I will have a hard time falling to sleep becoue I will be nervous to meet my man again.

My husband will probably not be there that day I come, but InsAllah he will come in the 2 closest days after.

And we will be able to walk there again together on seaside hand in hand, maybe go fishing like we did almost 2 year ago.

Allah make this last month be a happy one with my dear once in Sweden!

Today is the Islamic new year, we have now entered year 1432 after Hijra (migration).

This is what is said on wikipedia about Hijra:

It is common to the question of hijra refers to the Prophet Muhammad and his followers made from Mecca to Yathrib in 622 AD

Muhammad and his followers had been subjected to persecution in Mecca, where they refused to confess his message. After having had contact with representatives of Yathrib for some time were the exodus in the spring and summer. Muhammad himself left Makkah later and arrived in Yathrib in September of that year. After the hijra Yathrib came to be called Madinat an-Nabi, which roughly translates as "City of the Prophet", who briefly became Medina. There is a saying that there began the development of the first Islamic society. The year when this was performed hijra is based on the Islamic calendar. It was after Muhammad's death that this was established, probably during Umar ibn al-Khattab Caliphate which was the second in line. The Islamic calendar (sometimes called the hijra calendar year of the hijra-year) determines when the Islamic holidays and memorial days earlier and since it is based on the moon, not the sun, as occurs, for each year, approximately eleven days earlier, according to the Gregorian calendar.

Muhammad (SAW)