I was going window shopping today, but it dident turn out so...

I went to Marieberg to cheek up the prices so I next week could buy it. But I found the right price and just jumped on the spending train. And damn that guy, he even sold on me an insurance that I in the start have not been thinking to take. But second thought its probaby good that I have it, becouse I will use it mosty in Turkey and then it feels more safe to have one instead of not having one. Never know what happens, it maybe get stolen at the airport, maybe drop it or get sand into the lens.

I have now bouth a Nikon D3100, 18-55 II.

In the price I got bag, photobook, digital photo frame and free cruies to Riga or Helsinki. So I think and hope I did a really good deal.

Only thing I need now is a SD-card so I can start to shoot some pic!

Today my thoughts have been around my husband.

When I woke up I whiched I saw him next to me, I whiched I kissed him.

I went up to do breakfast and I whiched I did it for him.

When I made dua, I did it for him.

When I was out walking in -18 degress for over an hour I whiched he was ploding through the snow. Stand there in the snow and look up at the sun and see how the snow was reflecting.

Making cherry soup for lunch and ''knäckebröd'', that I made mostly for my self but I can bet that he should have loved it in secret.

When I was cleaning and making dishes I wish I did it for him in our house.

When I was watching tv I wish he sat here next to me and hold me company.

I whiched he was here when I cook us dinner, then I should have served him chicken, grilled vegetabel in oven with sause.

And now I which he sat next to me, hug me tight and watching ''Halv åtta vid mig'' and enjoy a evening together.

I do wish all this becouse its 2,5 year ago my husband and I started our relationship together and its still 43 days, 3 hours and 33 min until I see this lovely man again.

Every day is special with him but I would have loved to be with him today. But now he sits there in his bed at army and looking at my photo and probably he got cold beans and bread for dinner which I know he would not preferred. I hope he at least dont have duty in middle of the night so he can have a good night sleep.

Ohh I miss him!!!

This is how we looked like 2,5 year ago.

This photo under is one of the last we took together before I went back to Sweden and he to army.

I got 20 min with my husband, its not a long time to talk when you have so much to talk about. And all we had time to talk about was sickness and when we can talk next time. The only time we will be able to see eachother in cam is when Im back on Gotland. Just becouse I am working every weekend and thats when my husband have possibility to be online. But maybe 4 week later we will be able to talk...a long time left until that.

So you maybe can understand how I feel right now...my heart is pretty heavy.

Kristin -> How are you?

Gökhan -> l m ok aşkim

Gökhan-> Sen?

Kristin -> Im good now!  

Gökhan ->

Gökhan -> Iyi to hear it

Kristin -> Whats happening there?

Gökhan -> Just 44 left inşallah  

Kristin -> Jaaa! Not long time left now

Gökhan -> çok training and duty

Kristin -> So your body hurts

Gökhan -> My leg little hurths, l mean my knees

Kristin -> Yeah i can belive that

Now Honey its not long time left!

We can seriously at last start to count down the days until you are out from army.

 50 days later we will be together!!

''I'm so happy, I'm so glad that I've got you

I want to thank you, and thank you means Merci...

MERCI! My little way of saying thanks!

MERCI for being you!''

Well my friends, Im happy today!

I had a long date with my husband and Insallah he will be online tomorrow too.

But today is a step closer to our finish goal.

We have passed day 100 which means we just have 55 more days until my husband is out of army and I am back in Turkey.

Oh I can finally see the end of this army time!

I have also just 1 month left here in Örebro. Also that feels good.

I miss my family, my cat and dog.

 To go home and celebrate christmas with them and enjoy the last days before I go.

The task is starting to end...

Alhamdulillah!

A brief description of the pilgrimage, step by step.

Days 4-6

The days are called Ayam al-Tashreeq

•  It stays in my two or three days, each day is to throw 21 stones divided into three different sites, seven on each site before and sunset. 
• On this day, usually shrine be covered in new fabric.

A brief description of the pilgrimage, step by step.

Day 3

This day is known as Yawm an-Nahr [victims days]

•  Early morning is one to do morning prayer at Muzdalifa.
•  You must collect 49 or 70 pebbles, it's fine to take the small stones on the road to Mina. 
•  Then it is just to move on to Mina to throw seven stones in the Wail al-Aqaba. The stones must be thrown one by one while saying Alahuar Akbar after each one.
•  Now is the time to sacrifice his victim while they kill their animals, they say [The Name of Allah, Allah is great, O Allah, it is from you and for you, O Allah accept it from me] you shall eat of his own animals and give the poor.
•  When you are finished with it so you have to go, or go to the sanctuary to walk seven times around the Kabbalist, then get walking seven times between As-Safa and Al-Marwah, then get cut or shave off their hair [for women that would be enough to cut about 1 cm from horspetsen, eventually you get to perform two (units) prayer.

At 04,40 am  I wake up from one of my good dreams by the signal from my mobil.

First thought is who is the idiot that send me sms at this time in morning...

Second thought, damn phone companys!

Thired thought I start to feel bad about what I earlyer thought.

I had got a sms from my husband!! Its almost a week seen I heared from him last time and I have been mad, worried and missed him so much!

In the text it said:

    First day of bayram, sun is going up over the mountains and I got

    duty between 5-7 am. Love ya

After I read it I had a hard time to fall back into sleep, not until 7 am something. But just 1 hour later my alarm called and it was time to wake up but my head and body did not want to leave sleep mode behind.

Now under bayram he will InsAllah have days off. He told me some weeks ago they were allowed to have 2 days off under Kurban but never know what their boss says now...I can just make dua for the best to happen us!